L'amour

Ive noticed a change these last few weeks. I found it hard for us to get back what we shared before, after everything we've been through this last year. I didn't think we would ever get the old us back. Not that what came after the break was bad, it just wasn't us. I kinda missed it allot. I love that i got you back period, no matter what had changed. There was just allot missing, it deff wasn't the same.

How ever, for a while now Ive notice allot of change, I'm sure you have to. Its been so great babe, i feel like everything has come back to what we had before and more. I'm loving it. Its just me and you, before everything that happened between us. Its so amazing being back on that page with you. Like i said, i always thought that page was gone for good. I remembered it like it was yesterday, but it was no longer part of the book. I never thought we would get that back.

Its so hard to explain exactly what it is that changed, but i know you see it, i can tell. Its everything, i can see it in your eyes now, like back in the day. There's so much love from the both of us. Its amazing being in a relationship where the feelings never fade, where they only grow stronger and stronger as each day goes by.

I want you to know nik that i truly do trust you, 100%, and i mean it. I know its been hard for me, but all I've needed was time. I trust you, i always have, it was just a lil harder to see at times. I'm glad we've been able to get through this together. Its been hard, but its all been worth it. I'm so grateful to have you in my life, i wouldn't trad it for the world

Love always

*caro*

Things i love about you

-i love it when you tell me "j'ai faim"

-when theres everything you could possibly want in the fridge yet its not what you are craving for

-how you surprise me with things that you hate but you know i love, and you do it just for me

-how no matter what part of your body i hit, its always your bad one lol

-that it doesn't matter how long uv been a sleep, i say your name once and ur there for me

-that you say you hate poyo, but deep down you love her more then i do

-that i dont have to say anything for you to know exactly what I'm thinking

-how you don't like to wear underwear
-the way you speak your mind, its really sexy

-how you hate allot of diff types of food, but i catch you eating it all the time like chocolate

-how you smile when ur sleeping, its really cute

-that i can tell you anything and ull still always be there for me

-how great of a writer you are

-how amazing you are at capturing great moments on camera

-that you know what you want and that nothing will stand in your way

-your farts, even if they kill me :)

-how smart you are

-how beautiful you are, inside and out

-that you're a great person

-that you love me and tell me everyday

-the way you concentrate and make funny faces when you read things

-how you steal my lines, like "WATCH OUT!! THERES A PENIS RIGHT THERE :)

I guess this would of been easier and faster to just tell you that i love everything about you, theres not one thing i would change, ever. I heard on a movie once " We never know how much time we have left, but to spend every second with the ones you love" and i fully intend to do so. i couldn't imagine one day without at lease talking to you. Never would i leave you for months at a time, never again. I dont know how i was able to do it before, I'm glade i got a second chance at that, and i won't take it for granted.

Love always

*caro*



A picture says a thousand words

This is one of my fave pictures of us, and its not only because i made it. To me it just says so much, even tho you cant really see r faces. Its just your lips my lips, it feels so natural, theres so much emotion into this picture. So simple, yet it says so much. Its almost something ud see in a magazine. Its an amazing moment capture so perfectly. ive looked at this picture millions of times. Its almost like there was no cameras there, like it was never taken, more like an image that id have in my mind. Its just crazy how perfect it is, its crazy how perfect you are

love always

*caro*

Growing old with you :)

Sometimes i think of us together as two old Lady's, its funny to imagine lol. Just thinking about being with you as you age, it feels amazing. Thinking about me helping you up the stairs, getting in the car, sitting down, standing up and Even taking a bath :p. Maybe the other way around, seeing as how I'm older, you may be the one helping me with all those things, or maybe we'll be helping each other. All i know is that when we get to that point, ill know that Ive lived an amazing life with an amazing person. I cant see myself growing old with any one els.

Have you ever imagined what we will look like? what we are going to age into. Well i sure have, just the other day, and it got me wanting to know. So here's a glimpse of the future. Now the question is will you still love me when i look like this?

BAHAHAHAHAHA

because i know for a fact that no mater what you look like ill love you till the end, for ever and ever.

Even if you look like this

id still do you

haha

love always

*caro*

This is one of your fav pictures of us. I don't know why, but for sum reason it is. This was an amazing day spent at the zoo. There was so much to see, and we didn't even get a chance to really sit and relax, it was a great day.

I look like such a tool in this picture, but you always say otherwise.

Ive never thought i was really that great looking. I hated everything about myself. To me there was nothing pretty about me, but you make me feel beautiful. You tell me everyday, even on a day where i know i look like crap, but every time it makes me feel that much better. It feels great for me to have someone as gorgeous as you tell me I'm beautiful. Thank you baby, means allot

*caro*

Just look at us, all happy with are kids lol. they look like they love each other soo much. Its funny to think about it, we have a pretty weird family, two girls, cat and dog, all we r missing is a mouse, and you know Ive been wanting one for a while haha. We definitely make a real cute family together

But the truth of the mater is, i cant wait for us to have real kids, just me and you. I know it wont be easy and theres going to be hard times, but i know together we can do it, and if we have a girl we can name her Payton lol, but the boys name is all me, deal? deal :)

Its really nice to think that ya we've spent 4 years together, yet theres so much that we haven't done yet. Its a crazy adventure and its only getting started. Seeing you getting threw school thinking of a career, i know your going to do great, i so proud of you, you have no idea. Keep it up babe,never give up on your dreams, don't ever think things wont work out, because they always do one way or another and when you feel you cant take it anymore, know that I'm always there for you for anything that you need

for ever and for always

*Caro*

Perfect match

One thing we've always said is that were like two puzzle pieces, a perfect fit. I don't think i fit this perfectly with anyone els. Remember when we got are tattoos, man was that ever stupid. Lets go out and getting done by some dude with a hand made gun hahah, we are good. Well yours didn't turn out so bad, mine on the other hand, well that's a different story. It hurt so much, couldn't believe i actually let this guy do it. It was definitely worth it tho, something we did together that was meaningful to the both of us. Id never dream of getting it covered up, maybe fixed up tho lol.I hope your everything you ever wanted and more, because u definitely are to me, and i love you more and more each day

*Caro* 

....The Moments....

Theres so much that we've shared together, great moments, experiences, joy and pain. But lets not forget the love :) Theres so much that ive learnt from you, things i never knew, feelings iv never felt, and i know for a fact ill never feel with anyone els. You're the greates thing to ever happen to me, and id never do anything to lose that.

Back to the point lol. Things that we have shared together, the moments. When i think back at moments together, i always end up at the beginning. It was the most amazing time of my life, at the same time it was really hard for me, but lets not think about those moments. Those moments when we spent the whole night together, just me and you till 4 am and sometimes more. Just getting to know one another. I knew i loved you rite from the start. You where different, you made me feel things i had never felt before.

You remember are first kiss? i sure do, just like it was yesterday. I was so nervous, even tho i knew you wanted me, it was the hardes thing i ever had to do. I was scared you would reject me, i was scared it was the wrong thing to do. I hated the age, but thinking about it know, i wish i never made a issue of it. Everything was so perfect, i had found my first love, and all i wanted was to make you my last. Everything was amazing, the cute lil things we had, 5 min, okokok. i remember the night i said that for the first time, i just didn't want to let you go. I could have stayed with you forever, but i guess i had to let you get some sleep before school lol

I love that we took are time with everything. To this day nothing has gotten old. Its still like a fresh new relationship, always doing new things, yet at the same time keeping all the old routine alive. Thats what its all about, theres so much between us that i could talk about it for days on end. Like Quebec, even tho the ppl around us didn't make you so happy, it was so great for me and you to have are Independence. Just the two of us in are own place, that was the greates thing. Taking you for walks, weather it was to the bridge or to the park or even just down the road, it was just so amazing being out with you holding hands kissing, and just showing the world how truly happy two people can be together.

Theres was always something new between us at the start, it never stayed the same, it just got better and better as the days went by, and i still feel its like that with us, thers never anything to get sick of. I mean ya we had are hard time, but everyone does, and i know that together we can get threw anything. Nothing will tear us apart, ill never allow anything to get between us, ill fight for you, ill never let go, and ill never give up.

I have Hope and Faith babe, till the end

*Caro*



theres something about writing in the sand. Not sure what it is, but something about it makes it meaningful for some reason. Is it the beauty of it, or maybe just the feeling of putting some type of print on the world. Not that it will be there long but for the time being its powerful. I mean, ya the waves will come wash it away, but the love will always be there, maybe the love gets taken by the water and brought to others. Maybe it always stays in the water, the message that is. Imagine all the messages that the water keeps inside, never to be seen again. But thinking about it, with all those hearts written in the sand, i love yous and me + yous, imagine all the love in the water.

Its always so beautiful going to a beach. theres always a great feeling and happiness. The beach kinda takes over your body, never any worries or cares, just relaxed and full of life. Maybe all those hearts and i love yous that where once in sand floats around and creates that amazing atmosphere of the beach. Theres no better feeling that compairs, other then being in love

the day you wrote this in the sand was the day we had gone with poyo. it was really nice to be there at the beach with you. I always love it when u do things like this to surprise me, its really cute. Its a great feeling and only you and the beach give me that feeling. I could walk with you everyday along side the beach, theres always that romance that you don't get from goin anywhere els. It was nice sharing that with you. I cant wait to see what the future has to bring.

love always *caro*

This is one of my favorite pics. Just look at you, your having the time of your life. You look so happy, i can just read the expression on your face, it just says so much. I could look at this pic all day, it melts my heart.

The thing i love the most about it is how real it is. member how every time pics are taking of you u try to do this fake smile, its not real but still gorgeous lol just to show you that its even more gorgeous when it comes from you naturally. Thats the thing i love the most about it, how real it is.

For You

Its always been hard for me to put in words the way you make me feel. Its definitely something special and something ill never feel with anyone else. I've always felt very lucky, because not everyone gets to feel love, and its sad really. I feel like at least once in there lifetime everyone should know and feel what it is to have found someone special in there lives. its the greatest feeling in the word, a very powerful feeling. Even tho it has its ups and downs, the ups outweigh the downs. In fact the ups are so great that i find myself forgetting those down moments, when i really think back at those amazing 4 years, all i remember are the amazing memories we have shared. which brings me to this blog. i wanna share all those moments and at the same time show you, Nicole Fleming how much you really mean to me. I couldn't and wouldn't imagine my life without you.